full moon
One of these days I’m going to read through this blog and shake my head at the state of mind I’ve been in some of the times over these past couple years, then smile and realise I needed to go through it all.
More Jamesons and a great fucking night. Nothing happened apart from enjoying myself and the drama of other people, but it gave us a chance to talk and for me to actually say what I’ve been too scared to say, though I know before now wasn’t the right time to say anything. I was open and honest and feel a lightness in my chest where the pain of holding it in had built up and is now gone.
What now?
I live my life, she lives hers, and our friendship continues. Will something more happen? I don’t know, and while I want it to whatever happens it is cool. I love her and she knows this.
I am happy.
